December 2011
35 posts
I’m tryna learn something new
I’m tryna surround myself with people that inspire me
or at least inquire similar desires
to do what it T-A-K-E just to reach the T-O-P
I’m talking ideas, motivation
It’s more than making enemies my n*gga
It’s weird thinking that someone I was once close to, someone who I adored and looked up to isn’t the person I use to know. The last time I got to see him was at my cousin’s viewing and it was only a quick glimpse. He was there for five minutes which seemed more like five seconds. The moment I saw him I was overly happy because I’ve missed him so and tears fell from my face… I have never cried from being overly happy before, he was the only one to have that effect on me so far, surprisingly. I never hear from him personally, only stories of him struggling with life, being unemployed, and what kills me the most… him being sick. Up until now, I never knew he was doing drugs until three nights ago. He went crazy…
I guess I was too young to understand what was happening. I’m upset cause he shouldn’t be doing this to himself. I just hope he realizes that he has a daughter to take care of and definitely know that our family will support him all the way to make him a better person. I just hope and pray he’ll be a complete person again, hoping he’ll accept that he’s a drug addict, hoping he’ll agree to go into rehab, and hoping he’ll get his life back together.
Uncle, I miss having your presence at family get togethers and your random visits. I love you “ninong”. I hope you’ll get through this.
November 2011
28 posts
And when you’re fucking someone else just fuck her like she aint me
Damn, those words are scary, those words are scary virgin Mary
I just tell her to spare me.” —
As they stare me with the saddest eyes of loneliness
Look each other in the face and barely blink” —